FAITH & TRUST

Wow! Time sure flies! I can't believe we are already to April! I am SOOOOOOOOOOO happy to have made it to Spring and to feel the weather warming up and hear birds chirping that I feel giddy inside! This winter has seemed SO long to me and I think God was really teaching me PATIENCE more then ever and to TRUST in Him more then ever. My faith has grown even deeper over the past few months as I have had to completely rely on my trust in God to even make it through.

Robb lost his job right before Christmas and did not qualify for unemployment and my job has been in limbo for months now too, where I haven't even known from week to week if I would get a paycheck. We're to April now and so far every month something has come through and we've be able to pay our bills and have plenty of food and although we've had to live on credit a little bit too, we haven't gone without anything and God has supplied all our needs through this time.

When I look back over the past five months I can really see how God has been using this time to grow me more spiritually and to change my heart and mind towards a direction in our lives that I really feel He is leading us to. Robb is leaving tomorrow to California to apply for a job and train for a position as a crane operator and I know if I hadn't been through what we have in the last few months, I would not be ready to move to Bakersfield and would be bitter and angry and fighting it, but because He has showed me and taken me through what we've been through, instead I am actually totally at peace with it and even excited about it which I'm still amazed at!

The baby will be here in less then two months and I have always been a person who has to be totally prepared and stable and we are everything but that right now, but because my trust and faith in God has grown SOOO much deeper then it was even five months ago (and I thought it was pretty deep then) I am just not scared! I know that wherever we end up, God is with us either way and is taking us there and I am just going to trust in Him and not fear and have peace which only He brings me!

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4